hurted

i feel so dissapointed with you really.
you say that i am a playgirl.
seriously,
it hurts me lots.

i know that you wont see my blog,
thats why i can express here.
to you,
the more i try to explain,
the more im wrong,
the more you hate me.

im not trying to defend myself really,
but i just cant accept what you say about me.
you never heard people explanation,
thats the problem with you.
you always get mad with no reason,
thats the problem with you.

certain time,
i feel really useless.
jealous those girl that own a boyfriend,
envy those girls that loved by her boyfriend,
why i cant?

maybe you will think that kl girl are all materialistic.
but to me,
i just want a boyfriend that cares me loves me,
its that hard enough?

maybe im not the lucky one. i guess

remember those days we used to be very closed?
but why now.
im like ur enemy?
even in msn we can fight with nothing?
i tought u moved to kl is because u wanna have peace with me.
but why?

im seriously get hurted.
i cried in front of u through webcam yesterday,
but u have no feelings, at all.

u're not the one that i have known once upon  a time,
u changed like no one else buisness

did u know i have changed my hot tempered? because of you?
i appreciate you,
thats why i did changed for you.
but why?
you wanna hurt me like that?
u like playing heart attack?

in those days, in now and future,
your are so special for me
and no one can changed it.

but..
i just cant accept ur perception to me.
im seriously hurted.