* brain stucked *

i though i have been in a clam down mode because i have not seen my ex...
( i mean the recently one lah ) for about 3 weeks lidat...
i was like thinking " Whoaaa...this time i sure can start my new life liaw "

10 pm
he called me
he said : "i come find u now"
i was like : but..i just reach home wor"
he said : "i come ur house now"
i was like stoned liao 1234 seconds,then i answered "OKAY"

OMGnasilemakmotherf*ker..

what am i doing?
i should not been seing him..
i mean if i want totally rub him off from my mind lah

eenie minee minnie mooee..
finally he come
mother ask who izit outside my house..
i said : is him..
mother said : i tot u finish with him oledi?
im speechless...
"just yum cha mummy" i replied.

went inside his car..
those familiar smell went trough my nausal.
its my memory.
the smell that i was so close once upon a time.
sigh~

i didnt talk much really.
cause i dun know how to response.
my andrenaline or what they called nerve system is all blocked.
i cant even responses well when im looking at him.
he smiled at me.
i was like : "sei foh im so nervous"
WHY lidat wan? -.-

"u dun have anything to tell me?"
"no".i replied
actually i got many things wanna share with him.
but..im stucked.
so after makan,went back home.

guess what the f*king thing i did?
i HOLD his hand..
i am super numb now...
i really dont know why i responses like that
is like something hypno my mind
asking me to hold him.
he didnt swing away my hand, thank god.

then he stop his car near my house.
suppose to be like "chat a while before home"

but.
i dont know what to say really.
i just wanna stick with u a lil bit longer i guess.
u tell me that dis AWNVSJD girl like you..
i really didnt have much response really
to me...
im numb..
number than linkin park de numb...

you tell me that got a nice girl around you
i say "go chase bah"
ignore me pls.
he was like : wait longer a bit bah..you and me just..
i was stonned.
it was like you actually like someone but becoz of me...you?...
its my fault?
you dont like me liaw?

i swear that for this 12334 second
i feel like getting throw frm 23 floor..
die instantly.
im so innocent to think that if "maybe"
we could start all over again?
nope...

i realise that it was all illusion.

LIFE

tonight it's getting hard to fall asleep
im having a serious insomnia really
cause it becoming clear that i procalling to pieces
and i cannot reverse it

someone told me that i have put on weight -.-

i hate to hear this because it makes me feel so guilty while having my XIU YEH lol...

i wanna start diet liaw seriously...

i wanna slim down man

i wanna be sexy bitch lol -.-

and to someone that hated me so much...

i hope u can see this,

coz i wanna make it clear..

i WILL NOT snatch ur lover lah okay..

and if i Do, i Did, i Does,

ur lover tell me that he didnt love u lah...

so wats wrong after then?-.-

**********************************************************

this person is one of my frd's friend..
and im actually not that familiar with him

and he actually tell me that he ate drugs?does he think this kind of this very proud of?

and he somemore use family problem as an excuse!

just for hapy and blur..

NAH...u will die first before u finish ur happiness..

and i help his friends family to teach him..lol...

see our conversation below

*sorry if you saw this post*

its my blog..i have the rights to post anything that i like^^

last byt not least

do not take drugs please

be matured

think of your future

BYE

♥ Its all about...birthday ♥

21 march 2010

its spring again

and my babe even sweet 19th birthday.

actually, we should feel honour to celebrate with her on the actual date.

since so many people date her,and we are actually the 4th round for the celebration..

how famous was she ! XD

meet babe ying and her brother jason..

then headed to the place we choose to have the lunch..

birthday girl come at the last...

♥ Three of us ♥

our choice for lunch was THE APARTMENT

to comment,the food was succulant and it have a large portion..

guess is that to make the food a slightly expensive..

and more of all..we pay for the service,air-cond,and environment mah =)

here was some pictures to share ♥

mushroom and chicken speggeti

choice of mine,mash potatoes with the top of grilled chicken and some add on alcholi leaves and yogurt sauce..

Kids meal !! but we saw some of the "adult" eat it..maybe because it have big portion and is cheaper =P

jason!! he likes to camwhore..haha..say P.E.A.C.E....

after the lunch..we have our movie session..

"月光宝盒"

it was a stupid+lousy+annoying+funny+silly+insane movie..

but good enough...

i LAUGH...

for so long i din laugh dis happily....

after movie...

we went for the next chilling session

CUPCAKES TIME ♥

lai lai, birthday girl make a wish..

i like this pica the most..soooo cute* heart melts*

he is waiting me to camwhore him....♥

camwhore session the next ♥

i hate this pica the most..haha..becoz i looks so tiny beside her XD

next time i wont camwhore with you if you wear heels...

* height discrimination*  =P

with jason..the adorable  ♥

two of my babes, ying and eeven ♥

below are some heart-touching words to my babe even :

dont vommit please, im so serious *_*

Dear Lim Ee Ven:

We've been friends now for so many years

We've been together through the good times and the tears

Turned each other on to the good things that life has to give

Roses are red Violets are blue

Gtad to know friends like you

A blink in our eyes o shake with our hands

That's how we all make friends

A smile in your face lights up the day

That's what all Japanese say

A look in your eyes a touch in my mind

Happiness always ar~ives

When you're moody

I can help you get your troubles off

When you're happy share it with me

When you're moody Tell me I can get your troubles off

That's what friends are for

My best friend!

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥